आशाएँ

रात एक घनी थी,
चल पड़ा वो
आशा उत्साह
किरणो की ज्योति,
अँधेरे से लड़ पड़ा वो
जंग ऐसी भी नहीं,
की सक पका गयी मैं
रूह को छू गयी
जंग ऐसी हुई .
अंधकार में प्रकाश
मुश्किलें कई मिली
वो डरा नही
वो थका नहीं,
अँधेरे से वो हारा नहीं .
नयी सुबह
नयी आशा लिए
चल पड़ा वो
तेरे मेरे
सपने सच करने
अंधकार से लड़ पड़ा वो .

चल पड़े उन रहो पर हम
जिन पर कभी सोचा न था,
चल पड़े उन चौराहो पर हम
जहाँ किसी ने मिलना न था,
तलाश रही जिन रहो की हमे
वो रहे गुम हो गयी कहाँ,
राह देखी जिस राही की हमने
उस राही से कभी हमे मिलना न था,
राहो पर जिन पर चलना था हमे
कांटो से क्यूं बिछी थी वो,
दर्द की इस राह पर
क्या अकेले ही चलना था हमे ?

A flight of Thoughts

Coming back to writing after so long

a weight on my mind

ready to let go I am

but thoughts , crowd my heart

like waves in a storm

hitting every rock , they bounce back

a slush is what remains of my mind

but free horses and thoughts

alike

wild they are, uncontrollable

they say 'I control myself'

liars, I call them, scoundrels

fooling me to believe

what is far from truth

thoughts are mine

but can I control them?

a question, unanswerable by wise.

Attempt to unravel the mystery

many have done

failures they have hidden

by winding tales

fools, they are

a divine mystery it is

mere mortals we are

to attempt, I commend

to hope, I pity

let thoughts be wild

waves are never guided

let them be free

its nature it is

try to understand is what we do

His mystery, His power

we must bow before

weakness it is not

humbleness , I call it

to experience His mystery

is the joy of few

and then

some things are better left

unsolved!

2nd year!!!!

Officially the second year has started. Now we are seniors!!! So excited we all were but I guess over excited would better describe my predicament at the moment. Buried under assignment and presentation, little time we have to enjoy the new phase in college. Couple it with the stupid rules slapped by the college on us, we are in a pretty bad situation. Power cuts, movement slips and no late night campus walking have taken out all the fun of our lives. Well with the changing environment , I am found at the most unlikely places, library, lab!!! Don't look surprised by seeing me at places, which I used to avoid, afterall Vanya and studies don't look good together. But it is the ac there which attracts me :P , no fan in rooms and the horrible weather here don't leave me with much choice. Well, all is not as bad as it sounds, the new Bikarnerwala canteen is a relief! And then life with friends, I guess, more than compensates for the torture. Spending long hours of night on the terrace under the star lit night and wind blowing on our faces and beautiful songs from Shilpa's phone do make life so much more enjoyable. And then the little angel in our lives, Pixie, what a refreshing change. The love which we got from him did make life so much more beautiful. His chi chi disturbed others but to us, it was pure bliss. We found him as a scared 5 day old with the guard and now he is a healthy 35 day old pigeon. Though personally I could not give him time but I do miss his prescence in the room now that he has gone. The joy I got to see him fly for the first time is inexpressible in words....such a beautiful feeling. Even today it feels as if it was just yesterday that we brought him. Thanx to Khushboo who had the courage to take up the responsibility and to Shalini for taking care of him later on :) :)

So , overall, the new semester may be boring by traditional standards, we certainly have other ways to enjoy ;)

P.S : if anyone needs to know how to bring up a pigeon, do contact! Thanx to pixie and google , now I am quite an expert on pigeon handling :) :)

Rainy season!!!!

The rains are here! One of the best time of the year! Personally for me, I guess rains have brought more than just a respite from the scortching heat. Well, the fact that all around me the nature seems to be draped in a green saree, the colors of flowers intermingled with the green are such a beautiful sight. Looks like a painting drawn from the depths of heaven transcending the thoughts and sight of us mortals, giving us a glimpse of the beauty of the great unknown. The feel of nature's breathe through my hair, the tickle of rain droplets on my cheeks makes me realise the benevolence of the great almighty. The wet soil under my feet , a mattress so soft almost makes me wish I could sleep there :) When I look outside my window, it seems the world is better, problems stop to exist and a feeling that all is well comes to my heart. The melody of the pitter patter of the rain on the window panes reverbrates all around me and all the the negative vibes go away, life becomes purer and closer to the great power. And I am not the only one mesmerized by this eternal gift of mother nature, with me are the birds, the butterflies and most of the inhabitants of our world. Why else do you think the peacocks would dance and birds would sing in this enchanting weather. Why else would people just sit and stare outside the window. Why else would rains keep inspiring poets since time unknown. This is how everyone enjoys this amazing time of the year, drowning all their sorrows and rejuvenating themselves.

But when I see it raining, memories come back, the sweet memories of sitting in the veranda having awesome pakodas with my family, memories of playing in the rain with friends, of dancing at night in kota, of rainy day holiday in school and many more. Some light up my face with smile thinking of the good old days and I am sucked up in the vortex of the emotions and memories.

Well, so many thoughts in my mind which I want to write down but I guess I should get back to work now :( but I will close this post by writing a very cliché line which I used to write in all my rainy day essays in school :P “ if the spring is the king of seasons is rainy season not the queen?” !!!! :P :P

Happy rainy season to all and enjoy it!!!

Mumbai Darshar Part : 2

I am back with another account of my mumbai stay!!! Finally, mom allowed me to go and explore mumbai on my own :D , so off I went exploring mumbai ( and ofcourse my limit of stupidness :P ). Like all experienced people I had seen, I started off with asking the local people about the bus stand and bus number. And on sunday, my friend and me started our journey. Went to the bus stand, twice got on the wrong bus :P , got down at the next stop, waited for an hour for the correct bus to arrive (all the time asking myself “why am I doing this???” :P :P) , got into a very very crowded bus but still managed to get a seat!!! Thank god we got down at the right stop :D. Bandra. Had heard a lot about shoppping there ( and ofcourse the bargaining :P). The first view: damn, so many shops!!! where do I start?? so my friend started off and I just kept staring at the goods being sold, never have I seen so many varieties in one street. Later even I shopped :D and it was fun!!! So in bandra, we went to hill road and link road. Wanted to go to bandstand too but sadly coudn't go :( . And on the return journey, we didn't make any mistake!!! and came back safely ( to my mom's relief :P )
So this was about my weekend, but the fun doesn't stop here!!!
On monday after office, yawen and me went trekking on a hill !!! Didn't think that it was getting dark and raining hard :P . The board at the foot of the hill which stated “Entry restricted from 6:00 pm to 6:00 am. Panther is being frequently sighted” also coudn't stop the flow of adrenaline in our bodies :P :P , though we did apply insect repellant cream in hope to scare the panther away :P :P. Off we went. Never have I been so reckless and casual about my safety. But you know what? I totally loved it!!! Climbing up the slopes, all we could do was mutter words which I cannot type here ;) but the view , awesome!!! The whole powai region, the lakes, the hills everything looked just perfect. I wish I was a poet, could have described the beauty better but WoW!!! We kept walking, not knowing where we were going, but somehow we ended up at hostel 1 :D . After so much physical exertion, all that was on our minds was food :( , so started our search for it. Well, did not have to wait long :D had maggi!! and then we took an auto as our legs were totally not in our control :P :P . Showed Yawen a bollywood movie with eng subtitles, which she liked :) except the song and dance routine :P :P and finally went to sleep with a bit of fever and stomach ache (aftermath of a physical exertion, I should not have made :P :P) .
P.S do pray that I come back safe and sound (seems unlikely with my stupid acts :P :P )

Mumbai darshan : Part I

Well, finally I am back !!! A very very hectic month over and now I can heave a sigh of relief. Practicals, exams, packing and then lots of travelling. Allahabad to Jabalpur to Mumbai. But finally I am settled and at peace. In Mumbai for a month, I have already started missing home :( :( though I know that eventually I will adjust here and start having fun :) . Went to south Mumbai on Sunday and loved it!! Started off with colaba causeway then to gateway and finally to marine drive, superbly awesome!! Damn, colaba causeway was so much fun, such vibrant colors and lovely items :) What I liked the most there were the antiques WoW!!!! From globes to gramophones, everything was available :). And the crowd there, too good, every person there had a personality of their own, cool na? Then we went to gateway, it was beautiful but it was very crowdy :( .Wanted to go around the sea in the ferry but saw the waiting line and turned back :( :(. Saw the iconic Taj for the first time (I liked it better in the photos though :P ). Had the famous vada pav there , sorry to say, didn’t like it much :( :( . From there we went to marine drive, fell in love with the place <3 , the wind , the lights, the feel, heavenly !!! Couldn’t stop myself from sitting there even though we were getting late . Then the lukha vella that I am , roamed about the streets for another hour, with my sister continuously shouting at me for going to room :P . Finally when all my excuses ended, I had to return :( . But will surely go there once again.

All was not as well as it sounds though. Saw kites, so much excitement, hype and waiting. All I got in return was 3 hrs wasted :x :x . Hate Hrithik for making such yuck movies :x . Though the place we went to have dinner after the movie was great and the interiors , awesome!!!

And yeah did I tell you that I travelled in the world famous local trains of Mumbai, I have to say, it is another world experience :) and yeah also the double decker bus , too good :). After seeing the night life of Allahabad, mumbai’s was beyond comparison (roamed about in hiranandani at 12 in the night :P :P ) . Well, all that has ended :( . Now that di has gone, I am not allowed to go around anywhere (courtesy my mom).

More about my Mumbai stay in the next post, now that I am full time vella, I will keep on posting (keep reading, if you can bear it :P :P )

Till then ciaos :)

Well its been days since I wrote something here….not that I was busy ,just that I wasn’t getting anything to write on. And then I realized how fast time changes, one day I literally have to choose from a myriad of topics and the next day I have nothing to write on. Sadly, this is applicable to all parts of our life. One day you are best friends and the next day you don’t even acknowledge the prescence of that person. This is something over which you have no control. Sometimes the circumstances are such that how much ever you want to set things straight, you just can’t. How much ever you feel that things are in your control, they are not and the reality is painful. In life you meet people with whom you share your deepest secrets and beliefs, and if you don’t get the trust of those people , it hurts, it hurts bad. People say that love is great, to those people I say, friendship is greater. Friends are people with whom you share moments of life, moments that will be cherished forever, and if friends leave you , the soul loses something, the pain and fire melt you from inside. You can face the worst days of your life with your close ones, but if these same people leave you , you have no one to share the pain with. An empty void is what is left in your life, with nobody to fill it with happiness and hope. When loneliness and sadness become your companion, material benefits don’t even figure in your life. But as they say, the show must go on. So how much ever melancholy your life might seem, you have to move ahead and give life another chance. Life is all about learning. Take this as a lesson of your life. Feel the positive vibrations around you. Soak into them, let them energise you and welcome the new you. Do what you like, make yourself the most important person in your life for a change. Pamper yourself. Let the warmth of hope make the draught of despair disappear.The blessedness of life will become apparent only if you have faced the rough times. So, make this thought your mantra and you will never have to curse your life  


P.S : dis is my first attempt at philosophy. do tell hwz it :) :)

Winter mornings: bliss and bane :)

How I hate winter mornings. Getting up from the folds of quilt early in the chilly mornings breaks my heart and I am tempted to snuggle back into it but I push my will to the max and come out of my dear bed to face the cold, dreary mornings, but all the bravado goes to hell once the blast of cold wind hits my face and makes me succumb to my senses and I enter back into my beloved bed, but since when did it start giving me time for sleeping?? So when the minimum possible time is left for me to get ready, I finally pull myself out of the bed and take out all my frustration by honouring the college people by some really nice names. But the torture still continues, the splash of cold water on the face knocks the senses out of me, but I don't give up, the fighter within me keeps fighting and finally I emerge a winner and get outside expecting the sun to shine down at me and congratualte me but no, what I get is not even a decent view, all blocked by a thick layer of fog ready to engulf me in it, turning the morning both ghostly and chilly. But all is not to complain about, there are things for which I look forward to in winter, the dew droplet on the green leaf, the feel of fog on my face, the bright colors of everyones sweaters, the warm glass of milk from mess {;)}. These are the things which make even dreary mornings as these worth remembering and missing!!!

fresh initiative towards peace with Pakistan

Today morning when I woke up, the first thing that caught my attention was the newspaper. Although every morning I look at it but never has the first page caught my attention the way it did today. Its often said that a book should never be judged by its cover but today’s paper could be judged by its cover and that too correctly! It was a blank page with pigeons flying and a brief writeup..Nothing fancy and loud. Understated and simple but eye catching. Two words never seen together ‘love’ and ‘Pakistan’ were written together and this was the thing which made me sit wide awake.
When I read it I found out about ‘aman ki asha’ , an indo-pak peace project by Pakistan’s Jang group and India’s Times of India group. What touched me was the core idea behind it that the people of both countries want peace. Because of some hardliners and selfish politicians, the common people of both the countries are suffering. Bureaucrats sitting in their plush airconditioned offices just pass orders and comments, they donot endure the backlash of their actions, it is people like you and me who have to bear the brunt.
But the politicos are not the only ones to be blamed. We are educated people capable of finding out and knowing what’s right and what is wrong . Today the moment a child is born, he is directly fed with the milk of hatred for our neighbour. We should realise that impregnating the mind of a child with prejudice before even giving him a chance to find out the truth is in no way going to make things easy. People should also realise that Pakistanis are not the villians, they are people just like us who want to live their lives normally and peacefully, villians are just a few people on both side of borders with vested interests. Let not the hatred blind our vision of our shared future.
The coming generations should not be condemned to a life of strife. There is no need for our future to remain hostage to our past. As a youth of this country it is our duty to support this wonderfully refreshing initiative and hope that one day the words love, India and Pakistan together in a single line do not seem so incongruous.